I'm flying tomorrow!!
One day more, another day another destiny.....
Oh I do love Les Misérables! And this quote, apart from being from my favourite song, is also quite apt for how I am feeling right now - this time tomorrow I will be at Heathrow getting ready to board a plane to South Africa - ahhhhhhhh!
While I am in South Africa I will be living in a town called Thohoyandou which is in the province of Limpopo. Limpopo is located in the north and is the poorest province in the country. I will be volunteering at a scheme called Legacy Giving After-Care Mentoring Centre (bit of a mouthful I know) and working alongside young people, supporting them with their studies and leadership skills. I will also be helping with community projects which will be raising awareness about HIV and AIDS.
Just typing that out is giving me butterfly's. As most of you will know this has been quite a difficult year for my family and I. We have been surrounded with amazing love and support from wonderful family and friends but I think it is only today that I have fully realised that I will be leaving all that behind to embark on this adventure. Saying goodbye to my wonderful job and friends (you're more than colleagues guys!) at Nottingham Hospitals Charity was tough, as was letting Luke drive off with my car (more because I was worried about his safety than anything else!). But those two things gave me independence and now that has gone for a while - which is very scary! The thought of coming back to a completely fresh start is also terrifying, yes it is exciting, but it is also absolutely terrifying, and I think I am only just appreciating that today!
So to say that I am feeling a little nervous is definitely an understatement. But to quote a poem that hangs on my bedroom wall 'those who risk nothing, do nothing, achieve nothing.... Only a person who risks all that she cannot keep, to gain that which she can never lose - is truly free'. To be completely honest I am not 100% sure what the poet actually means - poetry was never my strong point at uni! - but I get the gist. Sometimes you have to do things that scare you shitless (no other way to put it) to truly experience life to the full.
So I am going to take a deep breath and follow my own advice! I will try to update this blog as often as I can to let you know how I am getting on. Thank you so much to everyone who has supported me in this adventure and over the last year - you are all truly amazing.
See you in December! Lots of love Ruth xxxx